kingtycoon | (no subject)

Oh motherfuckers. Here is how I am and feel - which is Lion-With-World-In-My-Teeth. The thing about this book - and I've been at it a while, I'm at 70k and gaining - is that I'm going to goddammed finish it this month. This motherfucking book you bastards.

When someone touches me or is in a room that I have entered I get jumpy and anxious. When there is just anyone around I jump up and am in anxiety. I think - I think that I am pregnant with this fucking motherfucker book.

I was talking to the man at the busstop who seems to be named Perkins - that is the name on his CMHA coveralls. He looks just like Gordon from sesame street. Just like him. We were talking the other day and I said: "You always take the 10 down to the quincy station but you take the healthline from windermere? Why not just take the red line from windermere to quincy?"

He said: "Oh, they be robbing motherfuckers down there at Quincy, I don't go there since I lost my gun."

And I go to the quincy station all the fucking time. I will write this book in my shot-out-gut blood if I have to even if robbers rob me I have these motherfucking words that are going to motherfucking get printed onto a goddammed page.

That's what is up goddammit.