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kingtycoon) wrote2017-05-25 09:10 am
kingtycoon) wrote2017-05-25 09:10 am
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You know, where to start?
I keep going to Chicago - and it got weird these last couple of times - I don't know. We started this project in October - there's this whole thing about it at her house - this thing I made her. And it was all kind of at a peak for moods - for both of us. I had high energy and was embarking on my crazy mission to write a book a month for a year, or two books sometimes. And that's Happening. Still happening- but I have to tell you, it's exhausting and I'm in a weird place about that. Making my content. But it's an amount.
And I'm tired? I'm always tired - Agatah says so. I feel it. But not in a bad mood, but not in a great mood - she's, Disobeybie - she's in a bad place and it's complicated for us because of extraneous feelings making a problem -and then I am also weird with my sensetivities. Weird and tacky about it - but I resist those impulses to be a fairer & better far-off boyfriend.
But it's quite. When nothing happens, when matters are settled & regular you have a lot of introspection - you can be a diarist and ruminate. When things are in the works & happening...
The place that I've come to is one of steady concerted effort in mind & heart. Effort.
I keep going to Chicago - and it got weird these last couple of times - I don't know. We started this project in October - there's this whole thing about it at her house - this thing I made her. And it was all kind of at a peak for moods - for both of us. I had high energy and was embarking on my crazy mission to write a book a month for a year, or two books sometimes. And that's Happening. Still happening- but I have to tell you, it's exhausting and I'm in a weird place about that. Making my content. But it's an amount.
And I'm tired? I'm always tired - Agatah says so. I feel it. But not in a bad mood, but not in a great mood - she's, Disobeybie - she's in a bad place and it's complicated for us because of extraneous feelings making a problem -and then I am also weird with my sensetivities. Weird and tacky about it - but I resist those impulses to be a fairer & better far-off boyfriend.
But it's quite. When nothing happens, when matters are settled & regular you have a lot of introspection - you can be a diarist and ruminate. When things are in the works & happening...
The place that I've come to is one of steady concerted effort in mind & heart. Effort.