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Are You Stealing Time?
Jul. 20th, 2013 02:23 pmIt is that time again no? Or more likely it's been too long between these visits... Have I been shirking? Why yes, and that is the theme of the 5 of Pens, and so the meta-commentary now matches the card itself. Shirking. Not laziness, not even indifference, rather a very powerful engagement. The 5 of Pens connotes an interest in something that goes too far, that drives you to ignore those things that can't bear ignoring.
Have you done this? Have you relied excessively on alt+tab to conceal your bad behavior, your tricky gaming of the system? Your betrayal? Your biting of the hand that feeds? Sure, sure, your interests are your prime concern, your creations are more significant, by far, than those petty works that you're paid to accomplish, that you're expected to pursue. See - the card here tells about working on your hobbies while you're on the clock - ignoring what you're supposed to do to pursue the interest that has come upon you. Like the 3 of Pens - which spoke of growing indifferent to love, or the 4 of cups, which tells of a fascination with idle pleasures - the 5 of Pens here tells about an obsessive, consuming project that leads you to ignore your other responsibilities. Are you reckless? Sure, are you obsessive? Maybe, probably. Are you going to get fired? Could Be!
This is about having something you pursue regardless of a personal danger - whether of simply dishonoring yourself, or more substantially - of alienating those who are on your side. You're endangered by your pursuit here, your intellectual hypnosis.
Of course, the 40 hour workweek and the omnipresence of the internet are complicating factors here - in the contemporary world. There's hardly anyone that needs all 40 hours to do their job, there's downtime, idle hours. Perhaps your coworkers fill these with conversation - gossip. But you're obsessed, you'll drive through your work, just an inconvenience between you and what you're really trying to do. We've all written a novel or Two on company time, on company equipment after all.
Well? Haven't we?
Have you done this? Have you relied excessively on alt+tab to conceal your bad behavior, your tricky gaming of the system? Your betrayal? Your biting of the hand that feeds? Sure, sure, your interests are your prime concern, your creations are more significant, by far, than those petty works that you're paid to accomplish, that you're expected to pursue. See - the card here tells about working on your hobbies while you're on the clock - ignoring what you're supposed to do to pursue the interest that has come upon you. Like the 3 of Pens - which spoke of growing indifferent to love, or the 4 of cups, which tells of a fascination with idle pleasures - the 5 of Pens here tells about an obsessive, consuming project that leads you to ignore your other responsibilities. Are you reckless? Sure, are you obsessive? Maybe, probably. Are you going to get fired? Could Be!
This is about having something you pursue regardless of a personal danger - whether of simply dishonoring yourself, or more substantially - of alienating those who are on your side. You're endangered by your pursuit here, your intellectual hypnosis.
Of course, the 40 hour workweek and the omnipresence of the internet are complicating factors here - in the contemporary world. There's hardly anyone that needs all 40 hours to do their job, there's downtime, idle hours. Perhaps your coworkers fill these with conversation - gossip. But you're obsessed, you'll drive through your work, just an inconvenience between you and what you're really trying to do. We've all written a novel or Two on company time, on company equipment after all.
Well? Haven't we?
