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Minor victory but you should jump and proclaim them along with the others, no? I made a command decision. "You are the boss on Saturday, I am the boss of Sunday." Sunday is always my favorite day forever, so it's good, and she says she loves Saturday the best because we're always together. I mean, I like that, sure, but also, it's important to think that maybe your kid is really good at flattery. It's sweet and I take it that way, but okay, you don't need to lay it on so thick kiddo. Anyhow, Saturday was spent eating at the place I don't like to go (sportsbar, on a sportsday no less), and playing video-games, watching Avatar the Last Airbender all the way through, probably twice, while sketching and drawing, sketching and drawing. I kept busy with housework. Laundry. Boredom. Sometimes... Sometimes, I think and can't wait, get old enough to be left alone, or better yet, get in with friends, make friends, and go with them, I want to go, and see and talk to and befriend people, because I'm getting tired of sitting around the house with you kid...

Sunday was for me to decide though so I did! I won it all too. Art Museum, I'd been talking to a lady on Facebook who seems pretty friendly and she came to me to meet up with her there, maybe, and I pointed out that I went there often and I do. Anyhow, scrubbed up and presentable, we hike down the hill, see the artworks, see all the pictures.

Well, not all by any means, but a lot. The Antiquities mostly, actually, and that's where I shine. I talked learnedly about the objects and explained wisdom and cuneiform and told bible-stories. Jonah and the Whale. Explained Ushabtis - which is maybe the neatest bit about the Egyptians burial ritual - ceramic robots, maybe a whole chest-full, maybe a whole room full. Jonah and the Whale. You know, I grew up real, real religious. If people ask I say that I'm ethnically Christian. As in, I go to weddings and funerals at churches, and buy presents at Christmas, and accept that that's basically all you need, all there is to it. Anyhow, I've made my peace with the upbringing and now I look at the stories for what they are, mostly.

Honestly, I was grasping for a real meaning in the Jonah and the Whale story. You can make a lot of sense out of Cain V. Able - shepherds against farmers and cities against nomads. Other stories too - they make some real sense, there's a meaning inside. Jonah and the Whale? I go nothing - it's a parable about how the Assyrians were terrifying? Did anyone doubt that the Assyrians were terrifying?

Anyhow, I met this girl and her kids and it was pretty nice, and we'll make a plan to meet again next weekend because her cubs (like mine) are looking for people to play Pokemon cards with. We'll see how it goes, nice to meet people.

Walking home I run into Antonio and Anna - and hugged them both up plenty - I miss living with them! I miss having a roommate... Sometimes. It was cool running into friends all day. I got to get out more! Got to.

But I think I need more clothes, new ones.


No smiles, I am always a little disheartened when Youngster Agatha heads back to her Ma, and always a little lost about what I should do with myself.

My plan is to not smoke any cigarettes tomorrow, I don't know. I'm gonna try.