We shall take only the greatest minds, the finest soldiers, the most faithful servants.

MOTHERFUCKERS!

So here's how I work out my dismay and sorrow - it's by being all pissed the fuck off. Yes! Furious Hostility! Yes! Let it into you! Eat more Salt and drink more Vinegar! Whiskey and Vinegar!

Gin.

I couldn't even sleep, I woke up having dreams about a lady - like, intense dreams about this lady that were super powerful and I woke up kind of - well I was straight up disturbed from sleep and that's a thing that makes me super-grouchy. Like, irrationally aggressive and makes-my-mother-cry style grouchy. Anyhow, that happened at like 1 - calisthenics and painting go on but I still can't get any rest until I just fall asleep on the floor - and I know this cause I wake up on the floor all MAD. Then I just go to bed, to get woken up again, and I think very sternly about not even going the fuck to work today because FUCKING BLIZZARD.

I... If I could contribute anything of value to this world it would be a kind of KNIFE that could be used to STAB the fucking SKY. Did you see what that motherfucker did to me? Did you see this winter wonderland? This FUCKING NONSENSE?

acrimonious sigh.

Every place is better than this one - I remembered that by just opening my eyes slightly and peering out in the FUCKING BLIZZARD. The RTA couldn't go right, I stood in the elements all morning - ANTAGONIZED - and then I went to work and!

Well that was okay. That was fine. I was useful to myself and others. And then a lot of standing around in the FUCKING SNOW again. I come home and think about how everywhere is better.

The Goddammed Wasteland.

I only ate nuts today, I like nuts but that's probably not enough.