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I really ought to get this down while I'm in the mood to do it, to be circumspect and a little thoughtful about the course of things.  I don't know if I mentioned it here but I probably did because I kind of yell it at people, but it's, you know — my desperation to seem like I'm not just utterly without ability or utility of any kind — but I did really make 17 books last year — so I feel like it's not my fault that I didn't keep this up to date as well as it could have been.  Now I worry that this reads as some kind of false modesty fake humility thing, I don't know.  I don't fucking know, I went crazy.  I had a crazy year last year and...  Fuck, you'd know if I was bragging, because it'd be about how handsome I am.  Bragging about the things you do is like bragging about the stuff you know.  Anyone else can if you can.  

So yeah — I'm still pretty crazy I suppose if I think achievements aren't ever enough but purely arbitrary physicality is the only essential virtue.  Hey, good for me.

Anyhow I probably only sold enough books to be able to fuck up my tax situation anyway...  Perverse incentives.  

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