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And On And On
Jan. 1st, 2021 07:09 pm"
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My job made some poor decisions. I thought they were poor decisions. The job didn't make them, I guess, but the people who I worked for - those people, they made bad decisions. Charmed life of those who needn't make an effort to thrive, they regard all their good fortune as virtue & cannot brook any alteration even in the face of calamity. They'll survive, do fine - wealthy americans who've been given everything - they'll never suffer for their failures - but they'll certainly punish those around them. These are the charitable versions of the thoughs that came to me while I was planning to quit. And then I did.
It happened fast & seems like it might be great. Actually, truly great - but I hate to speculate on positive outcomes, this is how things are jinxed, this is how I'm later doomed. But I moved on to another job doing same-y database administration for a factory - but now in a mostly remote capacity. I'll have to be on site sometimes. A factory - needs people in person even in the plague.
And also it is in Pittsburgh.
Agatha sits here next to me - a new year & her second from last of high-school. A sleepy uninspiring year of poorly managed distance-learning. Poor teachers all trained for the classroom & flailing from behind the screen. She'd done a year of the all online school & seen it done well - what a shame to see it done poorly - but there you have it. I think the school doesn't standardize the methods - different teachers use different appls, sites, sharing software - so it's confusing.
Which is what the year has been. Conflicting, confusing & customeized the million ways of doing a single thing diffused over the whole population. Everyone guessing at what they'll do. That's all over - everyone is seeing & living under it - the lack of leadership, direciton or confidence. There's no right way & the many, many wrong ways are compounding - people are losing the thread. There's no continuity between us or its fading away - faster now. More.
So I will probably have to get a car. I've done 10 years without. I'll probably think on this more, soon, down the line. I'll think about the end of various eras, the demise of a way of being. In the meantime I've got a nea chance. Having wished & wanted to leave this town without uqite knowing how, I'm given a chance to ease out with one toe in another land. I look for a new job and find a superior one right away. I wanted a change & get a bunch of veyr good changes all at once.
"My job made some poor decisions. I thought they were poor decisions. The job didn't make them, I guess, but the people who I worked for - those people, they made bad decisions. Charmed life of those who needn't make an effort to thrive, they regard all their good fortune as virtue & cannot brook any alteration even in the face of calamity. They'll survive, do fine - wealthy americans who've been given everything - they'll never suffer for their failures - but they'll certainly punish those around them. These are the charitable versions of the thoughs that came to me while I was planning to quit. And then I did.
It happened fast & seems like it might be great. Actually, truly great - but I hate to speculate on positive outcomes, this is how things are jinxed, this is how I'm later doomed. But I moved on to another job doing same-y database administration for a factory - but now in a mostly remote capacity. I'll have to be on site sometimes. A factory - needs people in person even in the plague.
And also it is in Pittsburgh.
Agatha sits here next to me - a new year & her second from last of high-school. A sleepy uninspiring year of poorly managed distance-learning. Poor teachers all trained for the classroom & flailing from behind the screen. She'd done a year of the all online school & seen it done well - what a shame to see it done poorly - but there you have it. I think the school doesn't standardize the methods - different teachers use different appls, sites, sharing software - so it's confusing.
Which is what the year has been. Conflicting, confusing & customeized the million ways of doing a single thing diffused over the whole population. Everyone guessing at what they'll do. That's all over - everyone is seeing & living under it - the lack of leadership, direciton or confidence. There's no right way & the many, many wrong ways are compounding - people are losing the thread. There's no continuity between us or its fading away - faster now. More.
So I will probably have to get a car. I've done 10 years without. I'll probably think on this more, soon, down the line. I'll think about the end of various eras, the demise of a way of being. In the meantime I've got a nea chance. Having wished & wanted to leave this town without uqite knowing how, I'm given a chance to ease out with one toe in another land. I look for a new job and find a superior one right away. I wanted a change & get a bunch of veyr good changes all at once.
