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[kingtycoon]

I guess, it seems, that something kind of important happened.  Something important happened tonight.  A decision?  It's impossible, everything is, when it comes to feelings.  I don't have strong ones - that's what happened to me - you don't have strong feelings when you are accustomed to disappointment.  Which seems a lot like woe is me  but is really more like, strong-as-iron is me. Like you have strong dislike of coffee the first time you drink it or you have no tolerance for whiskey.  Disappointment is like failure, is like brussel sprouts - something you find a taste for only later in life.  Anyhow, and it's not a shame, but it's been decided and I guess I aught to have a feeling, but I'm gratified that instead I decided not to, because I have a whole wide array of feelings but none of them very deep.