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May. 31st, 2022 11:22 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kingtycoonTook a few days off work & they were good days. My job... You know, a lot is exploding all the time & I take that very personally - which is maybe the soft-skill that makes me an adequate sysadmin. But I've been trying to stamp out the flames more-or-less nonstop for more than a year. Consciously did nothing for 6 days in a row & felt a type of way - a freer way. I called off all my games for a few weeks too. Just feeling empty, not, devoid - more scooped out, lacking content. Introspection here helps. A little. It's also a warmup.
A had prom -
I'm told it was great. I like her boyfriend no matter how short & blond he is. He gets into character & stays in character, a good player. Dumb that that's my bar but there it is. I still think that performance like that requires trust - so I like the trust & confidence and don't mind if he comes around my house - which is what you'd want out of your daughter's fella.
Went on a date myself - kinda went nowhere but I gotta practice. Get out among people again. I'm not exactly antisocial but I am solitary & that breeds antisocial tendencies - so get out & meet. She didn't want to walk, or maybe couldn't from 25th to public square but that's like, what I do - and it was a really beautiful day for it.
I wish they'd have another event under the bridge - that's still the best thing the city ever did. Maybe again, maybe keep it sparing.
The sky is really never this nice. Not ordinarily but we have great spring in NEO.
Otherwise the life domestic is going well. The neighborhood cat I like best is bullied by this tuxedo jerk, and tuxedo jerk came to eat up the skinny golden's food! Ah, I feed all the delinquents, birds, people, cats.
Funny to see in the morning though. Nice to see.
Tonight is A's commencement. I'm really not looking forward to it. I don't love hanging with A's other family I don't like hanging with my family & them simultaneously. I'm anxious about the kind of speeches I'll hear, the kinds of rituals I'll have to perform. Do they have pledges of allegiance? National Anthems? I don't need that in my life, I don't. I especially don't want to just go and watch something that isnt' specifically meant to entertain me. Sit & watch is not my way. It'll be a lot like school again and I still feel like something of a failure because I couldn't shield my kid from the ruinous wickedness of american school. Still, it's an accomplishment & it's wrong to try to take away the achievement from these kids, even if the achievement is just having survived with any dignity & self-regard.
Did I mention that she helped bully the principal into quitting? I love that & it will be fun if it's addressed in the commencement. He didn't take their concerns seriously & they came at him saying they'd strike & or protest the building - which made him cry so much that he quit? Or is quitting - his last year. Leadership isn't for cowards & it's a little refreshing to see that driven home hard.
Maybe that means she learned the hidden curriculum & then learned the hidden curriculum beneath that one. Maybe. Maybe I've just radicalized her by my dumbass opinions.
Trying to be hopeful but it's not in my nature. Or maybe, I've just been too un-relaxed to do so. Maybe I should try to take a longer stretch off 6 days here, 10 days there? Lucky for me I hate to travel or idling away the days would seem like a waste of my pto. Ah. I must learn.
A had prom -
I'm told it was great. I like her boyfriend no matter how short & blond he is. He gets into character & stays in character, a good player. Dumb that that's my bar but there it is. I still think that performance like that requires trust - so I like the trust & confidence and don't mind if he comes around my house - which is what you'd want out of your daughter's fella.
Went on a date myself - kinda went nowhere but I gotta practice. Get out among people again. I'm not exactly antisocial but I am solitary & that breeds antisocial tendencies - so get out & meet. She didn't want to walk, or maybe couldn't from 25th to public square but that's like, what I do - and it was a really beautiful day for it.
I wish they'd have another event under the bridge - that's still the best thing the city ever did. Maybe again, maybe keep it sparing. The sky is really never this nice. Not ordinarily but we have great spring in NEO.
Otherwise the life domestic is going well. The neighborhood cat I like best is bullied by this tuxedo jerk, and tuxedo jerk came to eat up the skinny golden's food! Ah, I feed all the delinquents, birds, people, cats.
Funny to see in the morning though. Nice to see.
Tonight is A's commencement. I'm really not looking forward to it. I don't love hanging with A's other family I don't like hanging with my family & them simultaneously. I'm anxious about the kind of speeches I'll hear, the kinds of rituals I'll have to perform. Do they have pledges of allegiance? National Anthems? I don't need that in my life, I don't. I especially don't want to just go and watch something that isnt' specifically meant to entertain me. Sit & watch is not my way. It'll be a lot like school again and I still feel like something of a failure because I couldn't shield my kid from the ruinous wickedness of american school. Still, it's an accomplishment & it's wrong to try to take away the achievement from these kids, even if the achievement is just having survived with any dignity & self-regard.
Did I mention that she helped bully the principal into quitting? I love that & it will be fun if it's addressed in the commencement. He didn't take their concerns seriously & they came at him saying they'd strike & or protest the building - which made him cry so much that he quit? Or is quitting - his last year. Leadership isn't for cowards & it's a little refreshing to see that driven home hard.
Maybe that means she learned the hidden curriculum & then learned the hidden curriculum beneath that one. Maybe. Maybe I've just radicalized her by my dumbass opinions.
Trying to be hopeful but it's not in my nature. Or maybe, I've just been too un-relaxed to do so. Maybe I should try to take a longer stretch off 6 days here, 10 days there? Lucky for me I hate to travel or idling away the days would seem like a waste of my pto. Ah. I must learn.
