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[kingtycoon]

Prince Buster can only help you.

The reason I'm not ass-wasted on tequila today is because I avoid tequila in the way that flies avoid spiders. True Story. Actually - here's a true story about Tequila. Last summer me and a couple of friends went to Indiana - they were set on this idea of a weekend in Ft. Wayne - and they got after me to go, I didn't really want to, but then I did. Because I Will GO and DO on request. B says it's among my better qualities (more about which, shortly). Anyhow we went there and they were thirsty for intoxication so we bought a bottle of Patron, and then we split it three ways in the sketchy hotel we got - and let me tell you - three kind of sketchy cats in the dirty hotel? It's Definitively UNSAVORY. Not that we're that, just, you know, I was hyperaware of what that seems like. Anyhow - after splitting the bottle- Rampage. It was a decent rampage, but we lost Melchior, who was robbed by strippers and who all the next day on the way home was sick in McDonalds bags as I drove us home across the prairie in his own lovely car. Poor guy. It was a thing though, and I will never choose Tequila. I'd like to say that snatching the microphone away from the band to warn everyone about Dagon's call, or tagging the stripper-pole with my extra big sharpie, or vowing revenge on an entire nightclub were the works of Agave - but you know me, you know that's just how I ended up.

And that's the point of all this. Goofus enjoys excessive tequila - Gallant has a friendly beer among his comrades...

There's always that instinct to abandon your bad habits. I get it here and there - that feeling that you really should quit smoking, or go a day without looking at a lighted up rectangular screen, or leave the house even if it is rainy or dark or cold. There's always a soft pressure to reverse your bad habits.

But I don't care to do that, not really. My thought is, and I think about these things kind of a lot while I pace around on the back patio smoking after midnight (Bad) - 'so what if you do quit that stuff Kingtycoon? What'll happen instead? Are you spontaneously going to be a do-right once you've put the sin out of you?' You're saying huh? But what I'm saying is - if you push out your bad habits you're probably just making room for more of them, replacements.

The thing to do is to develop good habits. On a day like today - you know, on a sunny bright day where the air is strong and the various humors of the world are balanced - on a day like today it seems really possible to be a better person. Not that I'm going with - creating good habits makes you a good person, I'm just saying- you've got to do something with your time, it may as well be something you're kind of proud of. So yeah. I don't know friends - on a day like today I think, if it was always this way - well, I'd have the cleanest room in the house! I'd for sure have shaved my head and trimmed my beard to their optimal levels recently, I'd assuredly talk to everyone I see on the street that I recognize and maybe know- I'd be the model of spit-shined friendly industriousness. Those are good habits, I know they get rewarded in the world. I heard they do anyway. From a reliable source.

Maybe you train yourself to act a certain way so you'll always be doing it? So that if it rains and is dreary and you're sad you still brush your teeth the right amount of times and walk the right distance and read the right things and write the correct number of pages? That's true, now that I think of it.

It's intemperate, as I've said too often, the whole thing, the world, situations, circumstances- there's an inconstancy to everything that I find to be... I don't want to say frustrating because in the end, like everything else, it doesn't get me down. I suppose it's more, binding, more of a restraint- it frustrates my efforts but not me on a personal level. That's all.

But maybe your hedge against that kind of thing, being at the whim of cruel happenstance is to have your own reliability? Anyhow, I'll give it a try? I will - I think I will. So what are the good habits? If I'm programming them in - what's the right operation to have?

Especially I'm about to be on summer break and that's a thing. Cause, I tell ya, I don't have the best academic habits, but I have a goodly amount of native talent and highly developed academic instincts, and they take up the slack. When school is out I'm going to really, really need to find something that I'm good at to do. So I'm saying - it's pretty serious.