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kingtycoonHere's life at the top of the heap, here's me at the peak of my game, here's what's what.
So I've pared it down, down to about a thousand - books I mean - but they don't all fit, categorically. I mean the Penguins - they all go together, 19th century translations of Livy and Tacitus - and in the middle of the shelf the OCD and flanking it are my two volumes of Plutarch and to the left is greek and to the right is Roman - but really - the first five books of Livy belong closer to the ten or fifteen translations of gilgamesh which are on a different shelf anyway next to the Kelevala and meanwhile what the heck do I do with all these biographies I ended up having? And look at all my old SF paperbacks. I'm gonna need a shelf just for the books by me and friends of mine soon - and really that -
That's a thing that makes me glad about myself - did you know that? It is. That's one of the things - if I saw my 10 years ago self and said - You're really smart about this and this and this and study this - He'd be interested, but he'd be confused too - CSU? He'd ask? Cleveland? Still? I'd be all: Dude it's complicated. Which it is. And kind of stupid - but whatever, The Wasteland, I'll stay. My 20 years ago self would be all - You live down the street from like 10 clubs and band-bars and never go out?! And I'd be like: Dude, I'm studying, dude, I'm writing these books! And then 30 years ago self would be all: Wow! You can write a booK? Also why do you drink so much coffee? It's gross!
Agatha has this book we made together - and it totally doesn't phase her - to me it'd be the coolest thing ever - but to her? I guess as long as she can remember there have been these books around that her dad and his friends have been making. So that's a thing I guess? Maybe a great thing - maybe it's swell that she's so casual about it? Of course the people in your life should be artists and performers and intellectuals! Maybe she'll grow up to be amazing.
Outside -on my porch - and my porch has a commanding view- down, way down in the chasmic gap the weird, happy old half-indigent guy who always, always has a nice thing to say and has only ever asked me for a cigarette - he's shouting! I'm 47 years old today! He is, I"m happy for him - we pound fists in the air - victory you know. 47 years is a... It means a thing. More and more I'm seeing birthdays, anniversaries, next days tomorrows - those are vicotries, a kind of them. It's a rough world - somehow. It got that way.
Today it did - the fall. It's the fall and in the rain it's the fall.
I have so many books to read. So many books that I have to read now. None of them don't interest me - but that says more about me than these books - Grubelsucht - the mania for knowing! Anyway - more room more books - and consuming - I don't want to read right now - I don't want to watch a show, I don't want to have something given - I want to make.
That's where I am - I'm going nuts from not making. Waiting for the bus me and kid had this conversation - I let the djinii out of the bottle a ways back - Pokemon - now our shared enthusiasm - and heck if she doesn't want to talk Pokemon at all times without prompting, play cards, video games, pokemon - boy oh boy - I said no pokemon this weekend - something else. And not a favorite thing for her and she couldn't get why and I explained that there are two kinds of people - those who consume entertainment and those who entertain themselves- I want to be the second kind - I want to be that All The Time - and usually I'm good at it - you want to be that way too don't you?
Well she does, but Pokemon! It's fine, it's what it is. I'm half crazy is the thing, half crazy from the rain and the always having something that needs doing and the weird obligations I let myself end up having.
And from trying to figure out if Vollman and Wolfe are meant for the same shelf or if Mumford and Crowley shoudl be among the anthropology books or the political science books or how I ended up having so many comics and no attachment to them at all. And how I'll need a new shelf or two, or three for all my own notebooks, filled to the brim and itching for transcription.
So I've pared it down, down to about a thousand - books I mean - but they don't all fit, categorically. I mean the Penguins - they all go together, 19th century translations of Livy and Tacitus - and in the middle of the shelf the OCD and flanking it are my two volumes of Plutarch and to the left is greek and to the right is Roman - but really - the first five books of Livy belong closer to the ten or fifteen translations of gilgamesh which are on a different shelf anyway next to the Kelevala and meanwhile what the heck do I do with all these biographies I ended up having? And look at all my old SF paperbacks. I'm gonna need a shelf just for the books by me and friends of mine soon - and really that -
That's a thing that makes me glad about myself - did you know that? It is. That's one of the things - if I saw my 10 years ago self and said - You're really smart about this and this and this and study this - He'd be interested, but he'd be confused too - CSU? He'd ask? Cleveland? Still? I'd be all: Dude it's complicated. Which it is. And kind of stupid - but whatever, The Wasteland, I'll stay. My 20 years ago self would be all - You live down the street from like 10 clubs and band-bars and never go out?! And I'd be like: Dude, I'm studying, dude, I'm writing these books! And then 30 years ago self would be all: Wow! You can write a booK? Also why do you drink so much coffee? It's gross!
Agatha has this book we made together - and it totally doesn't phase her - to me it'd be the coolest thing ever - but to her? I guess as long as she can remember there have been these books around that her dad and his friends have been making. So that's a thing I guess? Maybe a great thing - maybe it's swell that she's so casual about it? Of course the people in your life should be artists and performers and intellectuals! Maybe she'll grow up to be amazing.
Outside -on my porch - and my porch has a commanding view- down, way down in the chasmic gap the weird, happy old half-indigent guy who always, always has a nice thing to say and has only ever asked me for a cigarette - he's shouting! I'm 47 years old today! He is, I"m happy for him - we pound fists in the air - victory you know. 47 years is a... It means a thing. More and more I'm seeing birthdays, anniversaries, next days tomorrows - those are vicotries, a kind of them. It's a rough world - somehow. It got that way.
Today it did - the fall. It's the fall and in the rain it's the fall.
I have so many books to read. So many books that I have to read now. None of them don't interest me - but that says more about me than these books - Grubelsucht - the mania for knowing! Anyway - more room more books - and consuming - I don't want to read right now - I don't want to watch a show, I don't want to have something given - I want to make.
That's where I am - I'm going nuts from not making. Waiting for the bus me and kid had this conversation - I let the djinii out of the bottle a ways back - Pokemon - now our shared enthusiasm - and heck if she doesn't want to talk Pokemon at all times without prompting, play cards, video games, pokemon - boy oh boy - I said no pokemon this weekend - something else. And not a favorite thing for her and she couldn't get why and I explained that there are two kinds of people - those who consume entertainment and those who entertain themselves- I want to be the second kind - I want to be that All The Time - and usually I'm good at it - you want to be that way too don't you?
Well she does, but Pokemon! It's fine, it's what it is. I'm half crazy is the thing, half crazy from the rain and the always having something that needs doing and the weird obligations I let myself end up having.
And from trying to figure out if Vollman and Wolfe are meant for the same shelf or if Mumford and Crowley shoudl be among the anthropology books or the political science books or how I ended up having so many comics and no attachment to them at all. And how I'll need a new shelf or two, or three for all my own notebooks, filled to the brim and itching for transcription.
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Date: 2011-09-24 06:25 am (UTC)I like your bookiness. And your makerness.
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Date: 2011-09-24 01:23 pm (UTC)Vollman & Wolfe aren't, & Crowley & Mumford should go between the anthro & the politico.