Hack the Block

[kingtycoon]

The truth is - it hasn't been a great year for me. There have been feelings that didn't get felt right, I suppose, I suppose that's the way to say it - that feelings weren't helped. That was stinging and real. There's that other business about my poor hoof though - and I think that had a harder role in the way things have been than I've been able to see or confront.

Plantar fasciitis. That shit, if you didn't know, fucking sucks. Its wrecked me on dancing with any regularity & also on walking enough. I went from 5-6 miles a day to about 1 and am also a big fatso as a result. And it still hurts like a fucker. I take the (not at all recreationally useful) pills & I do the exercises and I think to myself a despairing unbidden thought "this is how it is now, I will die and when I do I'll have this thing where my foot hurts".

But you know - I think it's finally turning a corner - getting healed or well? I've done all the nonsense with nostrums and prodigies. Really the saddest thing was buying the special night-time sock. There's a ruinous & deep unsexyness to having a special night-time sock that really hammers home the notion that your days of making hearts throb & flesh quiver is all at an end. "Hey baby... wanna see my orthotics?"

Not that there isn't something liberating about just giving up on trying to be a desirable mate - but that too is sort of a terrible concession. Anyway - moping is not unappealing for its own reasons and I'm not especially inclined to want to pursue it here. Fuck moping. This is about something cool I found out.

There's this one game...


Kind of I'm an ideal player. I have my nose in my stupid phone all the time anyway - and busted foot or not- I do walk a lot. So I started messing around with it and I think I might be pretty good at it. Ingress - it's fun. I found out about it because I got curious about the upcoming Pokemon AR game - it looks like these are the guys who are making it - their existing game is interesting. Fun too. You have to try and control your neighborhood by visiting specific places and you're best served by doing this on foot. So wandering my landmark strewn neighborhood - and around my church infested commute - it turns out that there's a lot to see just below the surface - all the weird East 93rd street storefront churches that I see every day - and now fight over with other players. It's a weird good time so far.

And then there's the strange & funny curiosities - where I'm demonstrating my regular commute - my day-to-day the unique & specific realities of my life as a person who goes around to places. So I'm the pioneer discoverer of weird places


And weirder still are the peculiar objects in my vicinity that I am the master & governor of. The Panda Statue by my house that I can interact with while lying in bed is my base of power. So it's fun to have my power base rooted in this statue of a panda. That's a thing that happened to me.


Meantime those blue fuckers have tried to colonize my neighborhood - they're warlike aggressors & it's my task to root them out of the Spirit Corner - for example.


The thing is - when I walk a lot my foot doesn't hurt. It's after you wake up or stand up that it gives out and is in pain - it's hard to get going but okay to keep moving - so this will do, now, today - as a reason to stand up and start going when it straight up sucks to do so otherwise. I'm aiming at getting alive and being right, I just needed to wake up out of the sleep of hurt-foot-laziness.

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[kingtycoon.livejournal.com]

Hah - well, often, if I'm walking that way I'm going to eat - which I don't do often enough - and then, when I do I'm kind of intent on having supper or whathaveyou. Also, I probably have a demeanor of studied unaproachability - cultivated by years of going to places where I shouldn't have.

I'll try to be friendly though - promise! I'm way nicer than I look.

And sorry about your own paw - this stuff is no good & who knew? Who knew you could have these problems. Not me that's for sure.