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Jul. 25th, 2018 09:46 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kingtycoon On Saturday I walked a couple of miles over to the game shop in my neighborhood. My town I guess, my neighborhood being a neighborhood of that town. I've been an inveterate champion of the west-side Warzone, owing to it having been the place I met many excellent friends. A bunch of creeps too, but still, I've had good times there - though it seems those good times are over. And my lack of a community table just now is getting under my skin - so I went to the fancy new game store & I lugged a bunch of books and wore the T-shirt I made & thought, well, I'll try to sell them, try to get something happening on the regular. And then I didn't succeed at all. They were having a big-big sale, a boardgame fleamarket for their 4th anniversary & I was a bit shaken by that - the years go by & get past you without a sound nowadays. Time is a stealthy enemy. They were too busy to care about what I had on offer & that was fine - I did make an attempt at meeting new people, pulling out the old Dale Carnegie tricks. Not too much but just enough.
Same old story - be an above-average functioning nerd in the dominion of the nerds & they take you as some kind of faker, some sort of spy. I get it though. Cointelpro, always that. Infiltrators. Being gigantic and frightening in a way has taught me its own lessons, so I decide that familiarity is what's needed & I decide that I'll go there more and more, I'll maintain a presence until that presence is taken as benign.
To that end I reached out and asked for many to attend an event last night, a little play-test of the game & book always in development. (when you look at the file to revise & modify & see that it's origins are in 2012 and recall again that Time is a stealthy enemy). And printed up sheets & cut out cards and brought along the bespoke dice - all in an effort that wasn't met well. But Dave came & we talked for a long time about a lot of things, it having been a long time since we'd spoken. That was good & we lamented the weird failing of my actual neighborhood where the rents are too high for cool shops to stay but inviting enough for cellphone stores.
But I'm happily starting to itch to DO after being satisfied for too long to BE. I think that kid's absence has helped - so much of life is waiting around for her that I think I fell into a lazy pattern just by mistake. I think & hope that highschool and age will get her up & off on her own enough that I'll be able to make a life of my own a little bit too. We'll see.
Same old story - be an above-average functioning nerd in the dominion of the nerds & they take you as some kind of faker, some sort of spy. I get it though. Cointelpro, always that. Infiltrators. Being gigantic and frightening in a way has taught me its own lessons, so I decide that familiarity is what's needed & I decide that I'll go there more and more, I'll maintain a presence until that presence is taken as benign.
To that end I reached out and asked for many to attend an event last night, a little play-test of the game & book always in development. (when you look at the file to revise & modify & see that it's origins are in 2012 and recall again that Time is a stealthy enemy). And printed up sheets & cut out cards and brought along the bespoke dice - all in an effort that wasn't met well. But Dave came & we talked for a long time about a lot of things, it having been a long time since we'd spoken. That was good & we lamented the weird failing of my actual neighborhood where the rents are too high for cool shops to stay but inviting enough for cellphone stores.
But I'm happily starting to itch to DO after being satisfied for too long to BE. I think that kid's absence has helped - so much of life is waiting around for her that I think I fell into a lazy pattern just by mistake. I think & hope that highschool and age will get her up & off on her own enough that I'll be able to make a life of my own a little bit too. We'll see.
